Cross road

Now, i'm at the cross road once again.
After the hnd, i read some books... victory over the darkness, inside out.
They kind of supplement the hnd materials. I must agree that reading inside out was a very painful experience, but necessary.

The message is
Feel the deepest longings in your soul that will never be fully satisfied till heaven. Don't be afraid of sadness. Face the hidden sin in your heart that makes it clear how thoroughly undelightful you are. Don't be afraid of brokenness. Let the pain of disappointed longings and the guilt of terrible sin drive you to consider the gospel of God's grace in a new way. Only then will Christ enter your life deeply and change you from the inside out, instilling in you a growing awareness of His relentless, unfailing love and a sustaining hope for a better day.